Yeah... I'm tempted to cut off communications for a few days or so, but i don't think i will...

You see, things were said last night that can't be unsaid. Can't be really compensated for, and as this person said... Question yourself. So i did.

I was quite surprised.

Q- Am i in love?
A- Not sure. I don't feel as though i'm getting the most out of it, and don't feel like i'm being treated properly. I don't feel as much attatchment anymore as the romance has faded. Correction. Disspeared. I often think i should be alone, or at least, without someone.

Q- Is this relationship working?
A- Sometimes, but it feels like a puppetry.

Q- Am i happy?
A- No. I'm rather miseriable. i occasionally feel rather suicidal but know i don't hae the guts to go through with it. I don't need someone to stand with me, i need someone to be affectionate towards me and make me happy.

Q- What are my thoughts on life?
A- Well my main goal in life is to be happy. I can't be right now, i've tried. Not unless something changes. And as for death... Some things were said last night. To be honest, if i died, nothing much would happen. Sure, people would miss me and be upset, but nothng with a great impact. My family would be upset, but they'd recover eventually. My friends wouldn't miss me much. Don't have many close ones. School would hold a small memorial service and i'd probably get a tree or something in the grounds. Tay... Would miss me i think. He would be upset, but would move on and get someone else i hope.

As i say. Things got said. They've made me think.